“live this moment”

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When I was 10, I directed a make believe wedding with my cousins.. Me as the beautiful bride, only male cousin; song as my groom... And rest of the younger cousins as smaller parts a wedding calls for... It was fun; I always look forward to the "cocktail" ( mixing fruits with different soft drinks) after the "ceremony"...

When I turned 16, I had a taste on puppy love and thought I could start to plan my dream wedding.. There was this feeling, it is going to last and we better start saving... It was day dream after day dream on gowns, flora, rings, me looking beautiful... All the dreams was about me on my big day... Groom was a blur... So I thought... Maybe it's not really gonna last.... I will just dream about my part.

When I am 24, I started attending more weddings and I began to be all soaked up with that fuzzy warm feeling at the wedding ceremony. I start to see beyond the gowns and decor; I'm seeing marriage..... The union, made great by two different individuals, coming together wanting to share the their life, make good their life promises to each other... Now wedding has meaning. I like that.



Now I'm at 27, 50 days shy of my own wedding... I think I start to truly see what a marriage holds... ( though I believe it will still change as time goes...)

Elopement wedding was never in our plans and dreams... There was no seed to this crazy act. It just stung me one day and when I kiss him, he got that idea too! ( ha ha joking)... it is just that I wanted something intimate... He wants something hassle free (wedding shouldn't be a chore) so we thought lets go elsewhere and get married! Just him and me:)

It's a selfish thing... I deprived those who love us the chance to witness this lovely milestone in our lives. But they love us enough to respect or accept ( with complains and nags we can't hear)... So yes, this two blessed selfish lovers are setting off to create a memory only they two share... No one else.

There are loads of emotions, all happy ones and it really feels that it is too good to be true. This is not a make believe party, not only about me and myself.... The only thing that stays is in still looking forward to that cocktail party!!! I like celebration:)

It's a personal celebration of our love; one that only matters if he is my groom.