“live this moment”

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i should be studying...but i'm not doing it now.............something is in my mind...and its bugging me!

i'm back!!from taipei....its gonna be a long entry if i'm gonna blog what happened the last 4 days...will upload a little photos the next few days to make the story more complete....now...some highlights...some things i found out about taipei...
-Singapore changi airport is really the best!efficient, pretty, loads of shops....
-taoyuan international airport is damn bloody far from taipei...its one hr...cost about NT1200
-Rainbow hotel has the best location and best of all..its clean.
-taipei is a good shopping heaven if you are rich..its same or slightly more ex than singapore...
-if you buy..its only for two reason...for the designs...or cuz the salesgirls are really hot and sound so sincere when they say it looks nice on you..
-taipei gals are all so dressed up....head to toe...
-the food can get pretty boring....cuz really...nothing too impressive..i'm a GOURMET!
-the shilin chicken is overrated..........they have better things there...like ji dan gao("egg" cake?!),herbal spare ribs,spring onion prata with cheese and egg...more....
-they sell this frozen sweet potato that taste so much like biting into ice cream...frozen kind,,yummiest!
-the shopping malls are not really for youngsters....75% of the shops...eg taipei 101 or shingkong san yue are branded boutiques....
-ximending and wufenpu is best for shopping..they got lots of interesting stuff....but a little messy...i mean the place...
- danshui and hebing gong yuan is overrated as well..its nice la..but not really worth the time spent on travelling......unless you are that kind of sightseeing tourist...
-always carry a small umbrella..it rains anytime....and goes away anytime....
-they have such good service...just pick any of them to compete with one salesgal at takashimaya...the taka salesgal will be put to shame...
-they have loads of nice western pastries or bakeries at the basement of shopping malls....amazing and looks so delicate...
-eslite bookstore (cheng pin shu dian) is the biggest book store i ever seen...so many books..but too bad..mostly in chinese....and one thing..their toilet is fascinating!!!the toilet cover will lift when you open the cubicle door...and they warm the sit....no seatin on a cold cold toilet bowl...
-the best food is as followed: ah zhong mian xian...frozen sweet potato..bbq buffet..ji dan gao..ba fang yun ji's guo tie and dumplings...and jian jiao....the smelly beancurd is pretty ok...
-taipei is a good place...just that i went with such high expectations that i'm slighty disappointed....
more tml....i'm tired...

p.s: thanks... the trip wont be as enjoyable if not for you....thanks for blocking the umbrellas and shielding me from danger the past 4 days....

i need to do all these...
- love my granny more
- love my parents more
-workout more...more toned!
- score A for my PR
- Get an internship by Jan
- take time out to do voluntary work
- save enough for US trip...dun wanna ask for money
-know what i want to be...actual self image=ideal social image


i need to do all these...cuz i'm procrastinating.............

got my white psp!! i'm a happy girl with a pretty psp..but i havent really set my hands on it...no memory card...will be getting on soon..then we can play on the plane!! eugene wanted me to put a photo on the blog..but think i'm too proud an owner.... so maybe not now...maybe in my other photos...it'll appear discreetly....

he passed away on saturday morning, and i got to know when i saw kiwi at my canteen waiting for me... i was expecting to meet thomas after my papers....need to get the cd and maybe for lunch...never did i expect to see kiwi....in my school's canteen on a sat noon...he looked weary..i stood faraway and stared...i couldn't believe it was him....when i walked over... he broke the news to me... he actually sms me..but i was in the exam...can see it....at that moment...my heart ached...i cant say he was very sad...but he was not himself....the whole day....he was not...he's still smiling and eating..but not his normal self.... the last few days were spent at the wake and his place....everyone's tired... mentally and physically....but i think everyone's more relieved...he's no longer struggling...he's no longer in pain....he's peacefully sleeping...guessed he needs the rest. may the god he believes in, guide him and let him rest in peace.

there's no much flow in my this entry..cuz too many things happened..sad...happy...all... next thing up....miriam moved!!! to sembawang..... now i got companion when i need supper....when i need to go school...or when we're out shopping and returning home.... she's lovely!! i'm happy!! met her over dinner and did some shopping at sun plaza... then we set off to her place.... its just a less than 10 mins walk from my place.... we're loving that fact!

i'm gonna do some preparation work for the taipei trip this fri.... and gonna try fininsh up my PR assignment..... kudos to me ...so many things...so little time...














it hurts watching from the glass door.... met him less than 5 times, but i teared...it may be inappropriate...but ..i cant help.
saw this tube in his mouth...his jaws were moving..as if he wanted to say something..or maybe it was simply too tormenting....i dun know how many tubes or wire was inserted into him...its was too much to know...helpless is maybe the feeling we all share, him and us...he's just slowly failing...and there's nothing we can do, nothing at all... i look at eugene next to me, i wipe my tears, i shouldn't be crying...
the scene reminded me about my grandpa...both of them... were they struggling this way before they left....this thinking is haunting me...badly...i shouldn't have went.....but deep down in me... i know....i might regret not going.... for two reasons... i may not see him again...and.... i'm sure he'll be glad to know someone care..
its hurting him alot...alot...i'm praying hard..may god of his belief relief his pain and fear.

* i lost 2 of my beloved...one who brought me up...another one who i get to see only 4 times a year....there isn't a difference in the degree of misery....i miss them, and everytime when i miss them and realised i lost them forever, tears flow....i'll never get to see them...no one is gonna cook the dry spicy maggie mee for me...the way he does...no one is gonna sit on the sofa outside our paloh house when we return....when they go, its forever... i'm missing them.








the rain is falling.."smoke gets in your eyes" is playing on my phone..time seems to slow down to allow recollection..allowing me to speak to my inner self...it feels as though i was ahead of time all these while..too caught up with everything and i'm wasting away..wake up,speak,walk,work,ask without...thinking...i always ask you," do you love me?", i always say" you didn't say you love me...", i always claimed people dun understand me..

i ask if you love me..cuz i lost touch with sense..i dun know how important i am...i was busy living...

i say you didn't say you love me..cuz i need to know my existence...i was wasting away..in the routine...

i claimed people dun understand me.. cuz i dun understand what i want..i dun know who i am sometimes...

i'm missing these....
the morning breakfast at holland village
my grandfather
my grand dad seating outside our paloh house
the after school hours at shareen's place...
star gazing
family beach outing
family supper at tanling halt
chinese lesson at JI
dancing in da studio...

HEROES came to Singapore... and they were at Vivo City for some publicity.....i didn't follow this show and has no idea whats so great about it till ken told me....its about how people from all around the world save the world with their supernatural power. They have all kind...travel thru time..stop time...talk to machines...spilt into doubles..read people's mind....locate people thru some "GPRS" power.. auto healing power...flying...etc...it makes me think about a old fashion question....
what supernatural power would i like to have.....
i want to be able to read people's mind.... i think what power you want depends on what you're weakest at... i'm not a trusting person... i have very little security due to the fact that i dun trust people for their words....its something i know i have a prob with, i'm trying very hard to assure myself....its hard..really hard...but i try very hard too... being able to read people's mind is maybe the best way for me...but the same things goes....there's pros and cons..there'll be more probs ahead if i m able to do so......what would your choice of supernatural power be?

some asked....so here it is...
- tiffany mesh ring
- PSP white...
-luggage bag...nice nice stylo milo kind....( trolley)
-locket necklace
-manicure/pedi voucher
-borders/kino/page one voucher
-wallet (black)
-travel guides
-shu umera's eye lesh curler.