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21km of love..
Monday, August 27, 2007 || 10:36 AM
watched ratatouille the night before with thomas, elaine and dear...dinner at ichiban was not really good..elaine has tummyache ( not becuz of da food)..then we ate fast and pretty little cuz of the rush...movie at ang mo kio hub was pretty impressive..the seats are those big concert hall kind...comfy...my dear hugged me and fed biscuits thru out...thomas and elaine was laughing thru out...think couples cant help to be slightly more intimate when the lights are off..heehee..
went home and i rush to sleep..leaving my dear to watch tv on his own....woke up with terrible headache...but still pulled myself out of bed..eugene knows by making me responsible for making decision..making a bad one will make me feel guilty....so he was like, you decide if we should go...hmmm.....we went...
the run was.............................................a walk cum run for me...and i'm feeling lousy!!! i must admit eugene was right when he say i was not preparing well for my run...and ya..he's right! we ran a little and walked alot.... while we walked..we talked over business and inspiring taglines for his next project...he held my hand..fed me water at water point..explained to me the diff vocation in army..we did people watching..we talked non stop...and he was by me thru out...refused to run ahead...*touched* we snapped photos..and he kept me going....keith and thomas ran ahead...proud of them..cuz they were fast...they are my buds!!
went to do grocery shopping after the run...eugene was constantly inspired and ideas flooded his mind...bought a little intersting buns...and we went for lunch at food republic..i was like dying...leg pain...tired...BUT he was carrying all the things...i have no rights to feel worse than him...went home and cuddle next.....he made me fall in love once again...
thomas had his date!!!! he and his princess.... i hope he has found the right one.... and best wishes....you deserve the best love...
Saturday, August 25, 2007 || 4:30 PM
i was so wrong...i felt so...guilty to think of him that way..was on the train back home after delivering the food to the gym...he was seated..eyes red, he looked disoriented...when i got a seat..i was opposite him...i scrutinized him like how a cop would do to a criminal.."he's a bad guy...some bad bangladesh worker that had too much beer...in broad daylight!" i was sure of my judgement...i was telling myself...he's a dangerous guy...
a family of four came in...two babies..one in a pram..one carried by the dad...the "bangladesh baddie" stood up and gave up his seat...that was when i knew i was so wrong...he gave up his seat before anyone including me did...he stood by the pole and tried to play with the kid in the pram..when the kid reached for his hands..he pull it away...softly i heard," uncle hand dirty." he smiled and make funny faces to the kid..the kid giggle non stop.... i watched the interaction and felt so warm...and so guilty..who was i to judge...
Friday, August 24, 2007 || 11:49 AM
i smile pretty little these few days..i want to be quieter...i kept quiet to observe..to feel what i'm feeling..to sense the change..i need to do this myself..
project jogene!
Wednesday, August 22, 2007 || 7:14 AM
the project is working bit by bit...its the first day and we've made a little money... hope this will slowly bulid up our capital..and maybe we'll invest in more manpower and equipments to increase production..dear and i worked so hard...just wanna have a little more results...i'm pretty sure we can...
did pretty much cooking at his place the other night..he thinks...we argue...we debate..we discuss...we agree...i cook...its was alot to do in 3 hours..and think we spent about 2.5 and had pretty much done...felt accomplished...we hugged alot.. and we were happy...though we cooked alot..but i wasn't too interested in those healthy dishs... i want SINFUL food!! FAsT FOOD!! my dear compromised and we had Mac...ate sinful cheeseburger meal..dear had MacSpicy..shared nuggets... heez.. comfort food after a long day..
random: i hate my new collegue...she's that kind do things for show..show kimmy de... hate this kind of hypocrite!!! yucks!!!
Monday, August 20, 2007 || 12:39 AM
got it!! eugene soon even put it on his handphone note!! we went to causeway point and he bought me my w880i...one thing off his notes...i simply love my boy... i wasn't expecting him to write it down or set a reminder for that...but when he showed it to me..i was like.."oh my..its was something on his agenda..to get his galfriend e phone..cuz MDIS is a private sch..i wasn't qualified to apply for student plan...settle for that phone at $298...this is my advance 22nd b'day present...cuz mine went bonkers earlier... need da new one!! i love how the phone looks..and feel in my hand..nv b4 i had this tiny kind of hp...mine is silver..jac is black...ours are cool!!! must try to look thru the functions..gonna spend some time playing...
cuddles..huggies...foodie....sleeps...gaming made up the whole sunday...sunday lunch is always good..had this claypot rice..with yummy fried dumplings..auntie is good at it..we ate quite a few rounds...cuddle..hugged till it was time to shop for my phone....got da phone and head for dessert...yam on ice...generous portion..but ok for a sunday indulgence...went home and gaming starts...i won so many race...i'm good...cuz eugene said so....we won quite some money and upgraded our car..but stupid me..ended the game withour saving..but boy was cool about it...he says its ok...he's nice to me...sundays are fun becuz of us!!cuz i have him..and he has me.....always...next week will be our army half marathon...
cuddles..huggies...foodie....sleeps...gaming made up the whole sunday...sunday lunch is always good..had this claypot rice..with yummy fried dumplings..auntie is good at it..we ate quite a few rounds...cuddle..hugged till it was time to shop for my phone....got da phone and head for dessert...yam on ice...generous portion..but ok for a sunday indulgence...went home and gaming starts...i won so many race...i'm good...cuz eugene said so....we won quite some money and upgraded our car..but stupid me..ended the game withour saving..but boy was cool about it...he says its ok...he's nice to me...sundays are fun becuz of us!!cuz i have him..and he has me.....always...next week will be our army half marathon...
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Saturday, August 18, 2007 || 5:04 PM
was thinking of bring them to watch this show since it came out last week...its about sth they know all their life...my mum loves getai and my granny like hokkien stuffs...i remember whe we are still staying at holland drive..there's always getai near the market....there will be big joss sticks burning...and loud music playing.....its a thing i used to hate..but sth that i missed now..
mummy came back from work..and after taking lunch, we headed to sun plaza to watch it...took a photo of them infront of the 881 poster...mummy care alot abt how she looks...we took 2 shots even though we're running late...vain mummy...settled down and the movie started in less than 5 mins...the starting was funny..the use of language and cinematography was brilliant...costumes and songs were vibrant but there's this very heavy, depressing feeling flowing underneath..as the story goes..the mood changes..and soon my mum is wiping her tears...my granny too...the ending was depressing..its all about how royston tan played with the songs and the scene...its a great movie...
i actually began to miss him as i watch this movie...he would have loved to watch it too..his passion is this...he will love to be in the cinema...and maybe he was....
there's many things going on in the family for the last few months....one big family instantly split into 4...and i must say..i was disappointed with those adults who dun do what they preached...they'll regret..just like how they regreted when grandpa passed away...dun regret doing things or regret no doing certain when time no longer allows for changes...at least now...i'm doing things that makes her happier...i may regret not treating her better...but at least now..i'm doing all i can to min the regret...i know...i love her..and wants her to be happy and feel wanted in the remaining years in her life... i lost one chance....i cant bear a second one....
mummy came back from work..and after taking lunch, we headed to sun plaza to watch it...took a photo of them infront of the 881 poster...mummy care alot abt how she looks...we took 2 shots even though we're running late...vain mummy...settled down and the movie started in less than 5 mins...the starting was funny..the use of language and cinematography was brilliant...costumes and songs were vibrant but there's this very heavy, depressing feeling flowing underneath..as the story goes..the mood changes..and soon my mum is wiping her tears...my granny too...the ending was depressing..its all about how royston tan played with the songs and the scene...its a great movie...
i actually began to miss him as i watch this movie...he would have loved to watch it too..his passion is this...he will love to be in the cinema...and maybe he was....
there's many things going on in the family for the last few months....one big family instantly split into 4...and i must say..i was disappointed with those adults who dun do what they preached...they'll regret..just like how they regreted when grandpa passed away...dun regret doing things or regret no doing certain when time no longer allows for changes...at least now...i'm doing things that makes her happier...i may regret not treating her better...but at least now..i'm doing all i can to min the regret...i know...i love her..and wants her to be happy and feel wanted in the remaining years in her life... i lost one chance....i cant bear a second one....
many things on my plate...
|| 12:10 PM
went to sim lim with thomas, miriam and adrian..praying that the laptop could still be repaired...went to the shop thomas went the other time and left it there doe them to do a thorough troubleshoot...we were discussing all sorts of possibilities...the worst...we get a new one...but thats gonna cost..and we sat at Mac to do our sums...my lap is not doing well too...money and more money.....the good news came yeaterday...the repairman called and say it could be repair...gonna take two weeks or so at 350...i was like...go ahead go ahead...it sure cost lesser than getting a new one....miriam and i were like so relieved...lalalalala...met her last night to view a common room she found at Khatib..as usual..we met for dinner at the same coffee shop..ate the same thing...then we made our way to the block to meet the agent....
the agent was a 30 plus 40 yr old guy...his like 85% bald...!!!and he looks so unpro...but..the room we viewed was quite ok..its just the family of 4 includes kids..and the kids not very cute...so thats a minus....today she's gonna check out the house at tiong bahru.....if she stays there...we'll be so broke..cuz we'll be meeting to eat xiao long bao there even if we have no school........
things not going too right...hate it..
Thursday, August 16, 2007 || 11:29 AM
it slipped and fell off my hand.....hit the ground and.... when we picked it up and on it...i was praying a hundred times that nothing would went wrong....it on and was pretty well fine....after dinner... we discovered its on...by itself...and the screen went blank...gosh...sth is wrong...
met thomas, kim and miraim over dinner at vivo...they were sweet to meet me near my workplace....wnet shopping with miriam and bought myself ONE pair of shoes...i'm go glad i only bought one...cuz i'll regret later in the night.....went round shopping and then came thomas....he looks smarter today...better...its special cuz he's meeting kim... we odered our food while waiting for princess kim to arrive..we asked each other some lame IQ questions..and took a very long time to decide what to have for dinner...finally..kim arrived...we chatted and ate...ate and chatted...all and all...she's sweet..miriam's sweet...thomas's good..=== good dinner...we stayed till the shop was about to close and that was when we realise.... i dropped miriam's laptop when we were queuing earlier..it jus slipped and fell off...i feel so bad... then when we left..we realise that the laptop was on...and the screen was blank....we decided we will go down sim lim...its really shittty...if i am very rich now..i wont be worried..but now..i'm like not too rich...but i'll still find the money for the repair.....its just.........................................what the hekk..what was i doing!!! i feel so sorry..now her laptop is spoilt...cuz of me.....
enough of the going on and on..work was ok when jun jie and ken is around....they are more fun and i am less bored...look at ken in my photo.. he posed on my request withe the giant chupa chups outside our shop...but both of them not working next month..cuz the nation needs their service.....
met eugene after the dinner...he look good with his new hair...he's very loving...hug me and kiss me alot...and we talk about our plans...its gonna work...looking forward.........
foodie sat & sun...
Monday, August 13, 2007 || 1:12 AM
had this really good dinner at jalan kayu...first is the best prata in Singapore..had prata, mutton and bee hoon goreng...thomas and i were controlling cuz we wanna head down to MAD JACK..for more food...wanna try new place..the place is slightly down jalan kayu...and there's already crowd when we reach..got a outside seat and browses thru the menu..they offer quite alot of things...tehy have special sauce like orange sauce..and funny funny creations...i took a grilled chicken chop with cream sauce with herbs..and thomas ordered a blue mountain chicken burger..its supposed to be the tallest burger in town..but think it still lost to the super tall burger we had at BILLY BOMBERS...its like only 3/4 of it...the food was not too bad...quite cheap for a eating place and its serving...pretty nice place...finished the food in rush and went to meet dear...had FOOD..yet AGAIN...i met him at ICHIBAN...i was pretty full..but still love eating with my boy...had chawamushi and a little salmon skin and maybe one sushi...i love ICHIBAN...the servers were like our friends due to multiple visits..( twice a week..) and the food was good... plus..its a special place for us....they have one of the best sushi...try salmon asparagus..aburi maguro...fried salmon skin...and salmon head miso soup....they are never let down..
Enough of sat..sunday now...woke up to a steamboat cum teppanyaki prepared by auntie..she prepared all the marinations and yong tau foo herself... its lots of work..but taste really good..every sundays,i'll have a very elaborate lunch...and its so much work for auntie..i appreciate it...ate so much...and we can move...baby fed me some fruits..jack fruit ans dun know wat..my first time eating..slack on the sofa.........till we decide to have our cuddles...cuddle till its about 4 plus....we have to prepare and head off to town...he wants to get 2 pairs of shoes...i was a little shock...thats gonna cost...but..well he deserve it after working so hard...he even wanna buy phone for me today..cuz my stupid nokia phone spoil le... i was like so over the moon...as plnned..met thomas and elaine for mongolian buffet at park mall...paid like 35 each....the selection was pretty ok...quite worth..the best thing there is a bowl throwing show by the mongolian bbq chefs...they cook our meat on this enomous stone table...then sweep it into the bowl in split seconds and the bowl just landed in front of us....had fun eating...eugene ate alot...thomas got frightened by the crayfish...he thinks it looks like crockroach...haha...after dinner..went to starhub..its long queue...and after much waiting..realised the price i'm looking at is wrong....its for a more ex subscription fee...i was super down...luckily my boy was super sweet...he console me..cheered me up and even told me to check things out and he will get it for me..its an advance b'day present....he's lovely..cuz my phone cost quite alot..plus our taiwan trip..its gonna burn a hole in his pocket....
eugene and i are having some plans........some exciting plans.................................................till things get concrete...i'm not gonna tell...
left outs..
Saturday, August 11, 2007 || 6:01 PM
left out some pictures taken on tues... we had such a great day..cuz its Kim's b'day!! we had an advance celebration as she's going to HK fo holiday...and her b'day will be spent there... she's such a lovely friend..gonna keep her...after the celebration..went with miriam, kim and adrian to far east..miriam wanna perm her hair....she wants curls....she sat there with the huge machine while we chatted and chatted on the admin of our school...ok..we were complaining!!not chatting!! sat there for like 3 hours..then head to taka toy fair...lalala...miriam got her huge winnie..its so cute..staring innocently at us...and miriam chose it...its a steal cuz its like half price...i love miriam too..i love all my gals...school is wonderful cuz of you ALL!!
days flew by..
|| 11:26 AM
my days simply flew by...quitely..i cant say i was very busy..cuz most of the time was spent at work..and work = doing nothing...its boring and i feel myself wasting away...slowly.. there's alot of things i really wanna do... i have the time..but not the enthusiasm...i'm really wasting away...on a brighter note... had this lovely national day...there were 4 of us in shop...and we were fun!! the loveliest thing is Eugene soon came to my shop and fetch me!! haha the first time... we didn't make any plans..and to be true..i wasn't too happy that there wasn't concrete plans...BUT... it meant a beautiful surprise...we had a buffet at CARNIVORE BRAZILLIAN RESTAURANT.... the food wasn't fantastic... but not too bad..we have a sofa seat right beside the plasma tv..so we watched the whole parade! no squeezing =p we had so much meat..and felt like a true blue carnivore...the cool thing about this place is that..the chefs will go round the table..offering the different roasted meat...and sliced it onto our plates...food was so so..but my company was fantastic..hes so in the mood..that he says he wanna get new phone for me as b'day present!!my boy is sweet...he knows exactly what i want...
the feasting did not stopped on 9th...went to old airport rd food center with thomas on the 10th...haha...food and more food=thomas chan...we ate pretty much...he ate most of it of course...he always say.."must try, if not wasted..." he went round the food center to hunt for more food while i sat there in daze..i'm bloated... met my dear for supper... sinful..sinful...i need the marathon....going to another mongolian buffet with eugene, thomas and elaine on sunday...i feel more and more like a pig..but i dun care...i'll try to work it off...if i'm stop wasting away..haha
b'day shoutout!!
Thursday, August 9, 2007 || 12:43 AM
its my day in 2 months time..its still a little far..but i'm already drafting up my plans and my wish list..just like what happened last year...i dread the planning..which group to celebrate on which day and how to celebrate...its family..its thomas and gang..its eugene and me...its classmates...its angeline and ppl.. i plan to have small but maybe many celebrations...if not i'll look so tired and ppl will think i'm 25 instead of 22... only those who loves me and i love will be invited...for this day..just like last yr...invitations will be out once my plan gets concrete
overloaded weekend
Tuesday, August 7, 2007 || 12:13 AM
i love my weekends...so many thing happened...first..it was the end of my lecture..had this "pizza party" as a farewell meal with kenna..we had a mock press conference on this last lecture..and i was the spokesperson for my group..was nervous till i almost brokedown...kenna was shooting sharp questions to those before me... i was like "someone kill me NOW!...I was the last second one to speak...tried to maintain composure and do a nice job..i guess i did it.. =)
we ended the lecture by presenting a card and present to her..she was so touched... she read every single msg and love the present we got her..i'm sure gonna miss her..
sunday was spent rotting and cuddling in bed with him...slept till 1 pm..woke up for lunch. read some papers..yada yada... then head off to song's place for another round of lunch...i saw my dearest cousin in his uniform... army!!he's a soldier now!! cant believe my eyes..he's my little cousin ( he's one yr younger than me..but he's like my little bro...) i'm proud but at the same time not quite connected to the fact that he is all grown up and well enough to serve the country...just as he was preparing to book in...3 aunties were busy playing mahjong..mummy, auntie and granny dun have enough khaki...so they were pinning their hope on eugene..thought he could play..haha..fact is that my love and i DO NOT know how to...so they continued as threesome...and they were speaking or cursing each other at the top of their voice...*noisy* not condusive for lovers...so we went off... haha..took LRT to CCK...stupid me..choose the long route...but still got to LOT 1...HE'S SWEET!!! he bought a queen size quilt for US! cuz we need a bigger quilt...he's too small for 2...now i annouce shared ownership of his bed and quilt...had a hard time puuting the cover over...and we realised it looked like chee cheong fun..when we roll ourselves in..he's the char siew filling and i'm the prawn filling... happy!!! bought 3 big boxes of durians...he ate them ALL.. i only at 2 pieces..he loves durians..and he's a kid when eating them....the whole room and him smelled so durian...all for the weekends...
womens' english..
Friday, August 3, 2007 || 1:29 AM
spotted this somewhere...think its pretty funny...
when a woman says... what she really meant...
"yes" "no"
" no" "yes"
"maybe" "no"
"i'm sorry" "you'll be sorry later"
"we need..." "i want..."
" it your decision!" " e correct decision should be obvious to you now..i was right"
" do what you want" "you'll pay back later"
"we need to talk" " i need to complain"
" i'm upset" "of course i'm upset you moron!"
"am i fat?" " tell me i'm beautiful in your eyes"
"you have to learn to communicate" "learn to agree with me"
b'dae..classmates!!
|| 12:44 AM
Its Fairuz 23rd b'dae.. and it was a surprise we had for him..jus like last year...got a white choc with macadamia nut cake and a green beanie for him...he luvs it! best wishes!! may wisdom be the best gift that comes with age!
Class was ok today... but still uts tiring...gotta choose spokesperson for our next presentation...its either gonna be fairuz or me...its just not a good task...cuz i'm not very confident...cuz i know whenever i wanna make my point clear..i'll tend to be too intimidating..and for fairuz..he's not composed enough to handle questions from the floor...its really tough to be a competent one...cuz we're not PR PRO..just maybe some "gonna be" or "wannabe"..the class is gonna have dinner with kenna tml night...i'll have to give it a missed..cuz i need to work...i need da $$ for my taipei trip...so well..i hate it..hate to miss the fun...but...no choice...
granny cooked again..my fav fried kunning fish in dark soy sauce..heaven....i love her to bits!! wonder whats on tml's lunch menu...and i got my 1G thumbdrive le!!its sony!!thanks to thomas...cuz he's nice to get it for me..and waited so long for me to reach and pass it to me...he's always reliable...always my savior... thanks bro..i really appreciate!!
went for dinner at food republic with miriam and kim...miriam got a 2G thumbdrive..hers white...mine's black..sister what...we chatted over dinner...on almost everything...glad that we got to know kim..cuz she's nice!!!hope we'll keep in touch after module ends...
eugene treated me to ICHIBAN BOSHI...he knows i'm pretty broke..another reason will be...the thing he was stressed abt is over!!it didn't turn out as what he was worrying abt..did some cuddles...even though it was pretty late...well..nothing beats having that to end my day...thanks..love you de!
unspoken love..
Thursday, August 2, 2007 || 1:29 AM
love my granny..but i didnt say it to her...she's da best..and she didn't hear me say it..cuz i not thick skinned enuff... she woke up early this morning to go to the wet market at bukit panjang to buy fresh fish..its for our lunch...she know i love fish...she rush there and rush back..cuz she's afraid i'll be off to school by the time she got back...and the thing that makes me feel bad...its drizzling then....i'm determined to bring her to have a crab feast at NO SIGNATURE CRAB for her b'day..i think after all the drama that happened to our family this few months..i should make her feel happier....
School has been taxing on me... i feel SPENT...kenna was trying her best to make lesson fun... but the prob lies with the fact we seldom take 2 modules in one go...its just too much...suddenly! Tuition with shanna is killing me too...she's just like me when i was little..so i really dun know how to handle her...she wants me back as her tutor...but...i really lack the patient and time to do so...i feel helpless... just hope that things will take a turn soon..be it school or job...
eugene has sth going on today(2 aug)...he's pretty stressed over it when i met him for dinner..he's just moody...i understand..tried cheering him up and yesh! he got better..and better...i'm happy that his happier.. i do believe hugging and kissing does most of the job...love always makes people feel better...more assured..baby, you deserve me to be sweet to you...
we got something going on in class....something brewing...a surprise... ~to be cont...~
looking at myself...
Wednesday, August 1, 2007 || 12:40 PM
made up of multiple me(s).... so itz difficult to say..i luv oreo milkshake...crazy over strawberries..dread plain water, a warm one makes it worse..i'm skilled at switching channels till my remote ctrl goes flat..i believe in dreams=) being happy is a choice n i chose it..i've e greatest pair of pals..keith n thomas....i love eugene.. love the t shirt u made...i have the ability to withdraw and drift away from conversation in split sec...i pout alot..alot..i daydream when i lose interest..i'm fascinated by old couples holding hands to market..i'm allegied to amoxicilin and banana..i have nite blindness...star gazing is the most romantic thing to do..i luv it when he tucks my hair behind my ear and kiss me on my forehead.. i can drink loads of beer but not cocktails... embrace sun tanning but dread my skin peeling...jogging is the best form of exercise for me..cooking is my forte...new things keep me going...luv sweet surprises ( who doesn't? ) patience is not not my virtue.. nv will be...dun like kids...guess that'll stay for quite some time..will only marry the man i love and not because he loves me..afraid to be the one left behind..hate accusations...hugging is the best present i've received..have monthly craving for laksa and mee pok with loads of vinegar..no pms till date...i'm more of an introvert ( ppl who knows me well now this fact)...i'm uncomfortable with silence cuz i dun understand it.. phobia for balloons, snakes and rats... dun like taking tranparent/ glass elevators....wads so nice?!.. enjoy ordering food and getting the boys to clear them... dun quarrel... likes to give silent treatment...( ask my dancers..) detest choc and hazelnuts.... admire frank people...spend as if there's no tml or my dad owns the swiss bank...soft spot for old people.. love my grandpa more than anyone on earth..i'm blessed with luv.