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Wednesday, October 28, 2009 || 4:21 PM
Miriam went back to shanghai... sobz sobz:(it was never a very sure thing that she is going back..... we had many talks... super long talks... but there was a never concrete conclusion. So many seemed to be happening and things suddenly became unstable and unpredictable.... we were looking at all the possibilities.... both going back and not....
After not getting any response from the many resumes she sent..... going back became a natural thing to do.... and we simply worked along this line.... every outing was for a farewell.... every shopping trip was a chance to souvenirs or to eat and stock up singapore stuff that she cant get in shanghai..... but i guess mentally... we are all not ready...... it just seemed like another long holiday we used to have back in school.....
There was this lunch with mummy and ah ma.... looking at this photo, i dun know if there will be such a chance in the future to have all 4 of us to dine tog..... there was this farewell chalet...... i dun know if there will be such a bond we share as a big group... 3 years down the road....
as i'm typing this email...(nov) many things that we talked about on her return... happened... there were so much emotions going on... for her...for me...for everyone who cares about her... at that very moment, i hope i was there for her...just like before...... Not too sure if i should do more to discourage her from going back, maybe she will feel the hurt less...maybe she will recover faster with us around...maybe maybe and many more maybes....
Now, i'm just waiting for Dec.... a super hug for her when i see her, i guess i will cry.....i really hate myself for not being able to ge there earlier, not being able to be there when she needed me most.... i guess this trip is more for me than for her....and i'm glad it is happening soon.